you're the droplets of rain..

doubts. unanswered que stions and endless pondering.
do we ever really heal? do we ever really forgive ourselves for letting the pain take over our lives? is it possible that we can finally move forward and free ourselves; free ourselves from the chains of the past that continue to bind us to the pain it had brought. lately, i have been trying to see past through the grey clouds, knowing that even though it might bring rain, that the warm rays of the sun will eventually shine through. is that all we can really do though? just wait inside until the dampness subsides? why not soak yourself and run around in the rain?
well maybe because you can catch a cold and find yourself mending on your own. but what if you don't have to be an island? what if amidst the crap , you find someone who's willing to share the same nasty colds and runny nose with you? is it worth it? is it ever really still worth it?
how do we fully accept the sincere apologies and the hopes of turning a new page? how do we know it's okay to run outside even when the storm is rolling in? when do we know that finally we can redeem ourselves and just bask in the beauty of the droplets falling upon you?

it's scary i know, i'm scared.
there's a chance of getting hit by lightning, getting hypothermia, and even simply slipping and falling. i live in the desert, so i think it's better to get soaked& that it's better to embrace it and to jump around puddles. you never really get to appreciate the warmth of the sun until you've been on the other side. so why not..