..forbidden to remember, terrified to forget..

it hurts, it simply hurts.
it hurts to breathe, it hurts to dream, it hurts to wake up.
it hurts to cry and it hurts not to cry.

i wonder how i got here?
to simply wake up to a life that doesn't seem to belong to me.
the tears can't wash away the pain&the slightest bit
of optimism left isn't enough to drown the void in my heart.

i just want to get to that point where the pain is at least bearable,
because this feeling in my heart is too much.

... missing you is exhausting.....